i’m sorry

It’s not you, it’s me.

I’m just not that into you.

I love you, I’m just not in love with you.

However you wanna put it, I’m breaking up with you, Vegas Scarf.  I knew it wasn’t going to work out between us, but rather than change the rules I decided to keep going.  Every row made my feelings obvious…I didn’t like where this was going.

I know you didn’t expect me to end things tonight- I didn’t either, honestly.  That’s why I was right in the middle of a row when I pulled you off the needles.

I know I made you think we’d work it out.  I’m sorry if I teased you by holding you up to my neck to be sure, even though I secretly knew that we didn’t “click”.

You’re good enough, long enough, but not wide enough though I take full responsibility for that, having ended it where I did.

Somewhere out there is someone who would have loved you.  Loved your Fun Furry kitch, your insane amount of black, and your combination of colors that I really had thought I’d grow to love.  That someone, unfortunately, isn’t me.

I’m moving on.  Tomorrow I’m going to go out and pick up someone else.  I hope you’ll be happy for me.



Thank God for antibiotics!  It’s been a few days, but I’m finally feeling better.  It really hit me hard this time, with full muscle pain around my neck, and no appetite (I think from both the pain and a side effect of the antibiotic or pain killer) so 24/7 headaches with one really bad migraine the other night.  Now I’m almost fine.  Still finishing the run of meds, and taking a pain killer before bed.  They are too strong to take during the day when I have to drive or be responsible for the boys, but between the hernia, a possible one starting on the opposite side, the lingering neck muscle/gland pains and the headaches…at least they let me sleep.

I was a little confused (let’s blame it on the meds) and thought that guild is next Tuesday, when in reality it is the 2nd Tues of the month…which means the week after.  Somehow I’d convinced myself that it was the Tuesday in the 2nd week since the month starts- not the same thing.  (Thanks Maaike!)  Anyhoo…thinking it was close to guild reminded me that I’d promised to do another quilt squre for our latest charity blanket project.  Wanting to get it out of the way, I cast on April 1st and did all the knitting and about 2 letters in duplicate stitch.  I finished the rest the next day.

Pattern:  Vancouver 2010 MKG Quilt Block

Size:  41 sts x 30 rows

Yarn:  donated scraps of Patons Decor in Red and White

Needles: 4 mm

Dates:  April 1-2 2010

Modifications:  I fixed up the chart that was given to me, and worked the lettering in duplicate stitch rather than intarsia.

Ravelry page here, Flickr project photos here.

I’m trying to clear off everything outstanding on my plate.  I know- it’s futile as more stuff will land there before it’s clear…kinda like at some strange buffet.  But I keep trying to keep up.  One of my most pressing deadlines is a baby gift for my friend Amanda.  She’s going to have the baby any day now, and I’m not prepared.  I finally decided what to knit and cast on Friday with stash yarn but…as you can see above…it didn’t work out.  The soda can and monitor are there for scale- that is the cast on and 5 rows of the circumference for the body.  It’s supposed to be size 0-6 months.  This is what I got after ripping out the hugeness I got when I cast on for the 6-12 month sweater size.  For contrast, if you gave a little tug to straighten out the measuring tape you see inside there, THAT is how big this size is supposed to be.  I’m just glad I listened to my gut and ripped it now after only wasting the last little while!

Finally, now that at least some of the backlogged photos are caught up, here are some recent photos of my precious boys.  Since I was feeling up to it, and the weather was so gorgeous, I took them to the park Thursday.

Here’s Jakob enjoying some craft time the other night after dinner.  He was having so much fun he wouldn’t even leave the table with the offer of some TV before bed!

And here’s Henri from 3 days ago.  I swear I could just eat them up.



I’m so mad. I’m SO mad. I have no one to be mad at but myself, but I am really, really so f*ing mad.

On Friday I ran a load of laundry before leaving the house for the day. I wanted to wash all the blankets and such that all the babies had touched/used during the playgroup, plus Jakob had spit up a few times and I didn’t want to leave his clothes in the hamper with milk on them. I also had the finished Montego Bay Scarf that I wanted to wash then let air dry before I gave it away. I ran the load, left for music class, then went to my parents’ house, and completely forgot about the laundry until I got home around 10pm.

Luckily (?) my mom had bought us some long-sleeved onesies in Plattsburg and Jakob had spit up again, so on Saturday morning I threw the new stuff into the washer with the old, damp load, refilled the machine and ran it again. I never looked at the clothes until I pulled them out of the washer on Saturday afternoon, ready to toss them into the dryer. I was eagerly waiting to pull out the Montego Bay Scarf to see how the Online sock yarn had held up to the washing… when I saw this:
And this:
&%**. I had accidentally left a velcro-closing bib in the laundry. I NEVER wash the bibs mixed in any more, I only do loads of ALL bibs, because I’ve had enough of the velcro getting caught and making a mess of our stuff. And now, the one time I forget to double-check it ruins not only a hand-knit, but something that isn’t even for me! It’s for charity! I’m SO mad. I will do my best to pull out the slack and weave in the end that got caught in the first photo, but there is nothing I can do for the run in the second photo. The yarn is actually torn. I will have to cut it just below, pick it out slowly and bind off, losing the extra foot or so in length. As a small miracle, the scarf grew in length after being washed, so losing the extra foot won’t really matter. What does matter to me is how fuzzy the scarf looks now after having velcro run along it. It doesn’t look “new” any more and I’m afraid they will think I’m donating a used scarf. I’m so mad.

In other knitting news, here is a project that is going well:
Yup, this is Jakob’s Hallowe’en costume progress.
C’mon, by now you should know what it is!
I couldn’t resist this shot of him modeling the work so far…you can see all the best parts- baby feet and that adorable grin. 🙂